may twentyfive

the third -

I crave intimacy.

being known. being close.

having someone in every part of your life because they want to be. and you in theirs.

it’s easy to get that close to someone through the conduit of romance.

but that’s not what i crave.

i think i’ve learned it takes more time to get to an intimate place with most friends…

and even then there are usually things missing.

i want to be touched.

doesn’t have to be sexually.

just connected… seen, felt, heard… known. in a physical way too.

they say we can have this kind of relationship with jesus and the father.

i think i have experienced it before, but it was more like realizing it in hindsight than feeling it in the moment.

they gave us these human senses.

why is it so hard to feed them healthily?

this human experience screams so loudly for those six lords, and dare i say spiritual intimacy isn’t always enough?

may the fourth be with you -

*thoughts not at all star wars related (go read “dark side” for those)

Have you ever had the amount of energy to clean the whole house, paint a room that you’ve been meaning to for a year, bathe the dog, and go thrifting…

and at the EXACT same time have no energy at all and need to nap?

That was me yesterday.

Is this ADHD?

… I did none of that and instead went to Aldi, bought gardening stuff and rearranged the back deck :)